I got my blood levels checked last Friday and this past Monday. They went from 1976 to 1895. I am miscarrying AGAIN!!!!! I just talked to the nurse and am SO MAD !!! They didn't even check my progesterone. My doctor is in surgery all day today, so she is going to call me tomorrow. Maybe I can get it checked and see where it is, I don't know. This just sucks though. I really thought that everything was going to be ok this time. WHY ME?!?! What am I doing wrong? Why is God punishng me and taking away my babaies? I just don't understand this girls. I am so hurt, and I feel raw and numb. I have to wait a week or two and see if the miscarriage goes by itself, if not, then I have to call and make an appointment. My doctor asked if I was spotting at all, and I'm not. She sounded surprised. My last miscarriage happened at 5 weeks too. I will let you all know what she says when I talk to her tomorrow. I can't keep going through this. We will try again, but have to wait 2 cycles. I am thinking of only waiting 1. I want another baby so bad.

By Vicki on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:01 am:

Rayanne, I am so sorry! I don't even know what else to say other than your in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry!!

By Jackie on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:02 am:

I am sorry Rayanee. I have no words of advice, this is coming from somebody who had 4 miscarriages in a row. It is hard, and it is sad, and it is hard not to be angry. Believe me, I understand. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better...Just know I truley understand, and I am so sorry for you.

By Kim on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:04 am:

I am so sorry Rayanne! You are not doing anything wrong! Please do not try before the doctor recommends. I had to wait six months because I was so far along and I think I waited longer on purpose to make sure I was well and healed. Plus you need time to grieve. My thoughts are with your family.

By Colette on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:04 am:

I am so sorry Rayanne.

By Tonya on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:06 am:

I am so sorry. I cannot ever imagine going through that. I hope they can figure out why and get it fixed for you. Good luck sweetie. Also if they say wait 2 cycles wait the 2 cycles they tell you that for a reason. Don't push your bosy into something it might not be ready for.

By Cat on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:16 am:

{{{{{Rayanne}}}}} I'm so sorry. I know nothing I say will make this hurt any less. Just know that there's NOTHING you are doing wrong!!! It's NOT your fault! I've btdt. Hugs

By Tripletmom on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:30 am:

(((Rayanne))) I'm so sorry.I also had to wait 2 cycles before trying again.(((HUGS)))

By Juli4 on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:32 am:

I am so sorry Rayanne. That is just awful. I have a friend who took progesterone cream a few months before trying to conceive so that she could sustain the baby. Maybe you can look into that if you haven't.

By Melanie on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:36 am:

I am so sorry. (((HUG)))

By Yjja123 on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 10:41 am:

I am so VERY sorry!!!! (((BIG TIME HUGS AND PRAYERS)))

By Dawnk777 on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 11:21 am:

I'm so sorry, Rayanne. {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

By Karen~admin on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 11:28 am:

Rayanne, I am so sorry.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

By Trina~moderator on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 11:31 am:

((((Rayanne))))

By Tink on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 11:42 am:

I'm so so sorry, Rayanne. I wish there was something all of us could do to help you get through this. {{{Hugs}}}

By Tayjar on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 11:58 am:

I can't imagine the hell you are going through. I will be praying for you and your family. I'm sorry you are going through this.

Please listen to your doctor. If two cycles is what they recommend, then you need to follow that advice.

My old boss and his wife went through 11 years of miscarrying and invitro. They had given up hope when they found out they were pregnant. Please don't give up hope.

By Crystal915 on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 12:02 pm:

((((Rayanne)))) I'm so sorry, no one deserves to go through this. Take care of yourself, rest, and remember we're here for you.

By Jtsmom on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 12:05 pm:

I am so sorry. I wished there was something I could do or say to make everything right.

By Sandysmom on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 12:06 pm:

Oh, Sweetie, ((((((((hugs))))))))))), I'm so sorry about this.

By Kate on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 12:44 pm:

Rayanne, I'm so sorry.

By Kaseys on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 01:11 pm:

Rayanne, I am so sorry, like Jackie I have also had 4 miscarriages in a row, mine were within the past 3 years, I know exactly how you feel and I am so sorry. You have done NOTHING wrong. I don't post much, but I like to keep up with everyone, if you would like to email me please feel free to mkshowle@bellsouth.net.

By Enchens on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 01:15 pm:

(((hugs)))

By Reds9298 on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 01:47 pm:

I'm very sorry Rayanne. You haven't done ANYTHING wrong. Really, as hard as it is, after miscarrying you just have to wait it out until that 3rd month and not set yourself up to be hurt again. Once you hit that mark, you can start buying booties until you're blue in the face. It's hard to think that way, but nothing is for sure for any of us until you hit the end of that first trimester and then the chances of a healthy pregnancy skyrocket.

{{{{hugs}}}} I'm so sorry.

By Nicki on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 01:53 pm:

I'm so sorry, Rayanne. Please don't think it's your fault.

By Bobbie~moderatr on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 02:23 pm:

Rayanne, (((((HUGS))))) I am so very sorry you are going through this again... You are in my thoughts and my prayers... This is NOT your fault.. Please keep us posted..

By Insaneusmcwife on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 02:33 pm:

{{{{hugs}}}} I'm so very sorry.

By Kaye on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 02:49 pm:

Sorry honey.

God is not punishing you. Don't ever think that.

I hope they do some testing to figure out what is going on. The fact that you have had one successful pregancy is a good sign.

((hugs))

By Breann on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 02:49 pm:

So sorry Rayanne.

((((hugs))))

By Cocoabutter on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 03:24 pm:

Sorry this has happened.

I know you are wondering why. So am I. But now is the time for you to turn towards God for strength, not away from Him.

I am praying for you.

By Amecmom on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 05:58 pm:

I am so sorry, Rayanne. Keep having faith. We are here for you. BTW, I was also told to wait, but I didn't (bad girl, I know) and we conceived our son at that time - just about a week after the miscarriage. The doctor was so surprised.
Ame

By Andi on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 06:01 pm:

Rayanne, I am so sorry. ((HUGS))

By Cybermommyx4 on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 06:27 pm:

{{{Rayanne}}} So sorry you are having to go through this....I've been through a few miscarriages in between our four children, and one thing I've learned is that you DO grieve for the ones that don't make it (even when you do conceive again). As soon as we learn we are expecting, our mind starts envisioning the future i.e. (IN two years they'll be this age and that age, etc.) It takes a while to re-adjust those dreams...allow yourself (your body AND your HEART) that time. You are in our prayers!

By Jewlz on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 07:22 pm:

big hugggzzz to ya rayanne.

By Brandy on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 11:23 pm:

hugs rayanne = ( i'm so sorry for your loss... = (

By Wandilu on Wednesday, June 28, 2006 - 11:27 pm:

Oh,sweety,I am so sorry.I also lost 3 babies,but I had 3 babies.I agree with the suggestion of the progesterone creme,plus a lot of other supplements.American Longetivity has some amazing products that I know for a fact that has helped with a lot of problems.I ,for one,was diagnosed with diabetes.I have been on them for a year or so,and my blood sugar level is so much better that I am no longer diagnosed as a diabetic.They have lots of great things for the reproductive system.If you want more info,email me at rlk wlk @ hotmail .com (no spaces) God Bless you!!

By Hol on Thursday, June 29, 2006 - 12:01 am:

Oh honey, I'm so sorry. Are they sure? My first pregnancy was a miscarriage, at about the same gestation period as yours. When I got pregnant with DD, I had spotting early on, and I had to take progesterone shots every week for 35 weeks to keep her in me. That was 1972, and they don't do that anymore because I guess there was a potential for birth defects. (DD is fine). I had no problems with first DS's pregnancy.
I have also seen what my, now grown, DD has gone through with her own fertility issues. My grandaughter is an invitro baby.
You are not doing anything wrong. I don't know why this is happening to you, however, do what the doctors tell you. (((HUGS)))

By Bellajoe on Thursday, June 29, 2006 - 09:32 am:

aw Rayanne, i don't even know what to say. I'm so so sorry.
Just know that you are not doing anything wrong. God is not punishing you honey, please do not think that.

((HUGS)) remember that we are all here for you.

Patti

By Happynerdmom on Thursday, June 29, 2006 - 09:37 am:

I'm so sorry, Rayanne. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there.

By Debbie on Thursday, June 29, 2006 - 12:22 pm:

{{{Rayanne}}} I am so sorry. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

By Dandjmom on Thursday, June 29, 2006 - 03:20 pm:

Oh hon, I'm so sorry. I know that there is nothing that will ease the pain but a lot of us have btdt, and we totally understand. I wish I lived near you so that i just give you a big hug. You are doing nothing worng, I had my first miscarriage within two weeks of finding out and it was a total shock, I tired for a while after that but just couldnt' concieve, then as soon as I stopped obsessing ( talking about myself) and let nature take it's course , I concieved with my daughter.

So sweetie please not that hwen the time is right god will please the two of you with a beatuiful son or daughter. Pls. wait the two weeks, like someone said give your body time to
heal.

Thinking of you and of course you and Chris are in my prayers. Take care sweetie.