I hate my job vent
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I hate my job vent
I hate my job. I work part time for a non profit and I do get to work mostly from my home. I have to go into the office 1 day a week for a few hours and that is it. It sounds like a dream job but it really isn't...for me anyway. I sort of "fell" into the job and I don't really feel like I have the real skills or maybe it is just the desire to do it well. I do have a bachelor's degree in business and this job is bookkeeping/payroll/benefits administration and I HATE every minute of it. It seems like I am never getting all the information I need to do the job right and I constantly correcting mistakes because people didn't give me the correct or enough information. How i got the job is that i was doing the billing for them for a program they had. I knew the person who was working on the program and she needed someone with skills in computers to help her prepare the quarterly reports. This was a 2 hour a week job max and done all from home. While I was doing this job the agency director (who was relatively new to her position at the time) decided that the staff person who had been doing the bookkeeping/payroll/benefits administration job was not competent and so she asked me to do it. I have hated hated hated this job from the minute I took it last November. I sort of feel as if the director asked me to do this so that she would get the other person to quit..which did happen. I don't think she necessarily thought I would be good at it but was an easy way for her to move duties around within the agency and make the other person so unahppy she quit.( she admits that this is her way of "firing" people) I have been applying for other jobs and seem to only be collecting rejection letters....don't even get an interview. We can live without the money as we did it before I took the job (stayed home with my kids for 8 years) but it will require some budget adjustments and belt tightening on our part. My husband is "ok" with me quitting but I think only because I am constantly crabby because I hate it so much. He thinks I am not giving myself enough credit and that I could do a good job if I just tried harder. I DON'T WANT TO TRY HARDER I HATE THIS JOB!!!!! So am I a loser for quitting this job? **going anon because you never know who may be reading this***
I don't think at all you would be a loser for quitting the job. You sound miserable with what you are doing. If you don't absolutely need the money, I wouldn't think twice of quitting if it were me. However, it might help you get another job if there wasn't a gap on your resume. I guess it depends on how important you think that might factor in. Good luck with your decision. I'm in kind of a similar boat, dh has a miserable awful job and we're working on his exit plan.
The fact that you want to leave a job that you hate does NOT make you a loser! If you want to work for whatever reasons, then continue looking for something that is a good fit. As for staying in your current job - if you hate it that much and can live without the extra income, then I would resign, if I were you. Rayelle has a good point above, but staying in a job you are that miserable in will affect every other area of your life - so is it really worth it?? Also, it really irks me that this person who brought you into this job admits to firing people that way - clearly not professional, and, IMO, gutless and shady....I'm not too sure I'd want to be working for/with someone like that in the first place....how can you be sure she won't one day do the same to you? {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
I quit my job yesterday. I feel better that I will be done but I can now confirm what I suspected that I was just moved into this job to make the other person quit so that she could find someone she really wanted to do the job. I had a feeling I was being moved into that 'make your life he**' so you will quit catgory as ever since the replacement person was hired, I'll call her R, had been reviewing my work and pointing out things I could be doing better/different etc. She has let me go immediatley and the replacement person, R, will be taking over my duties. On one hand I am so releved to be done because I really did hate it and it was getting worse with having someone looking over my shoulder all the time ready to pounce on honest mistakes BUT it makes me feel bad I really wasn't valued by that i was just a pawn. :-(
I'm sorry that you were made to feel that way but I'm glad you are able to move on to something new. Good luck!
I'm so sorry!
I'm so sorry, too.
I'm sorry too. It stinks to not feel valued. You are better off not being in that environment.
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