Spiraling downward
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I need some thoughts and prayers right now, I'm not doing to well and could really use them.
Most of you know who I am, I'm going to go anon but you'll figure it out I'm sure.
I'm 10 weeks 4 days pregnant now and I've been SERIOUSLY considering terminating my prenancy. I've continued to be sick, sick, sick and I just not sure how I'm supposed to deal with this anymore.
The baby's dad is being a total *&^ and not making things much easier either, all he does is add stress to me. I'm not sure even WANT another child at this point, I wish this all would have never happened.
In my heart I know that I can't REALLY terminate the pregnancy because I've ALWAYS been so against it but the toll it's taking on me emotionally and physically. I can honestly say I've entertained the idea of it more than once the last couple of days.
So many {{{hugs}}}! I wish I knew what to tell you to help you get through this rough time but you'll remain in my thoughts and prayers.
(((anon)))
{{{HUGS}}}
Just sending hugs to you and I will keep you in my prayers.
First off I would like to let you know that I pray for you each night before I go to bed when I say my prayers.
Secondly I have too been there, the sitution was different but still I too concidered having an abortion when I became pregnant with my daughter. Since I'm an only child I was the sole provider for my mother, she suffered from eplisey she was not a small woman and it worried me that I would not be able to take care of her being pregnant, I would not be able to prevent her falling her pick her up if she did. I saw it as this was my mother someoen I had known for 21 years of my life at the time and this fetus/baby that I was carrying Ihad never meet. But I did soem sole seraching( I've never approved in abortion) and I prayed to god and I had to remind myself that he doesn't give us no more then we can handle. Andw with that Iknew that this was a life tht he had created and blessed me wtih and I choose to have my baby, And I'm glad I did.
As for the baby's father, you have enough on your plate right now and he should be able to see that. You dont' have to listen to me, but my advice on that front is, he should be able to see but he can't that it is not abotu him it's about you and the baby. So my advice is distance yourslef form him right now, if he is stressing you out, you dont' need that. You nned to focus on you and your baby. He will still be the baby's father, but for the sake of you two's heatlh you have to put him on the back burner for now. Once your beautiful baby is born or you fell well enough to deal with him , then you handle with you need too with him.
I want you to know that whta ever you decide, your still in my prayers.
Many, many ((((HUGS)))). You are in my prayers...
Thank you everyone. I'm not going to terminate the pregnancy, I couldn't live with myself if I did in the long run. I know that in time this will all be a memory and I'll have a sweet baby in the end for all my hard work and troubled times.
As for the baby's dad, I don't know what to think about him. His true colors are sure shining through and I know now what a HUGE mistake I did ever getting involved with him. I have some serious soul searching do when it comes to him and how involved I'm going to allow him to be in our lives.
He's even made the comment that he could just "disappear" and truly I wish that's what I wish he'd do. BUT when he was talking about it was WITH the baby. That really scares me as he is a truck driver.
I've considered telling him I lost the baby and just doing this all on my own. Is that a horrible thing to consider or do? I just don't know, he scares me. I'm finding out he has little regard for rules and I think he's going to make my life as complicated as he can, just because he can.
What a jerk. I am glad you decided not to terminate the pregnancy. If he is scaring you, you might want to talk to a shelter about what to do, not that you need to go to a shelter, but they might be able to give you some advice on how to handle this. If he has little regard for rules, then most likely a restraining order isn't going to keep him away, but you might look into that. It worries me when you say he scares you. I might just tell him I lost the baby, if it will keep him away from you. Good luck, you are doing such a good job dealing with all that you've had handed to you this past year or so. It shows that you are a strong person and you will get through this too, I just think you need to find a little support right now to help you.
((((Hugs)))) I posted a reply last night, but it disappeared. I did email you though, and if you need a sympathetic ear, I'm always here for you. Hang in there, sweetie!!!
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