Okay girls - I am going back to teaching when school starts in August. I just realized that this means in six weeks, I will be leaving my babies. Don't get me wrong...I totally trust my sitter; DD has been with her since she was two months old. It is just that because of the timing of this pregnancy, I have had the wonderful experience as a SAHM since March. DS will be 5 mos. old when school starts.

There is no way that I can even think about continuing to stay at home - it is not a matter of us wanting to have the SUV, etc. - it is a matter of paying off college loans, the mortgage, etc. We don't even have cable--and the television that I have had since 1990 just went out--can't afford a new one anyway. Besides, I love my job--being a teacher is what God meant for me to do.

So like I said, tomorrow is July 1st. School starts in six weeks and it seems like every week is booked from now until then with 4-H fairs, band camp ( I sponsor the dance team/color guard at my school), a weeks vacation near Louisville, and bible school. Then, BOOM, I am back in the classroom for the first time as a "normal person" in nearly a year (my pregnancy was a very difficult one with frequent darts out of my classroom full of high-school seniors so I could puke!). Sunday night, DD went to stay with grandma and grandpa for two nights (they live an hour away) and I cried as she was leaving. I have never cried about something like this before. It upset her so bad that they almost had to turn around and bring her back.

I honestly don't know how I am going to handle this. I think my husband is getting nervous about it b/c he sees how attached I am to the kids and they are to me now that I have been home. I am not sure DD even remembers that I used to work. Sorry about the length of this post but I just needed to get this off my chest. Maybe talking about it will help it to sink in a little easier. Pray for me ladies!

By Coopaveryben on Thursday, July 1, 2004 - 05:48 pm:

I went back back to work after my first was a few months old, I kept having to go into the bathroom to cry. I worried about going back before I ever started, in fact I ignored them calling me to see when I was coming back for a few weeks...Yikes!

I can understand your worry and I am saying a prayer for you.

By Vicki on Thursday, July 1, 2004 - 06:07 pm:

This might sound silly, but what I did when I had to go back to work after dd was born was start taking her to the sitters about a week before I went back to work. I took her everyday the week before and then the first day that I was really at work wasn't as bad! I got it all out the week before and felt comfortable that she was adjusted too. Now, I will also say that only one day did I leave her all day, but it did help!!