On March 18, 1997, my beloved Dan went home to be with his Lord. He was twenty years old. I think I always "knew" that I would lose a child. It was my worst fear. I always felt that I would never endure it. He was my 'little man' and even as an adult, "Mom's Boy". He also left a young widow. In these past six years, God has given me grace and peace, and has taught me so much. Most of all, I learned that life truly IS eternal. Dan has showed me in so many ways that he is still around. Someday, I intend to write a book, sharing the signs that I've had from Dan. Maybe they will bring comfort to other grieving Moms.
To all Mom's that are in a club we never wanted to be a part of, keep your faith and KNOW that you WILL see your baby again.

By Marcia on Saturday, August 2, 2003 - 09:07 pm:

Holly, I'm so sorry for your loss. I understand all that you are saying. On July 31 it was 4 years since our sweet Tanner, then 3, left us.
I am also an adoptive and foster mom. I have also seen signs, not only from Tanner, but especially from my nephew Brett, forever 6. He left us 11.5 years ago.
A dear friend of mine lost her 2 sons, and she sees signs often. I'm sure she'd love to chat with you, and I know she'd love to read your future book.
Sending gentle hugs your way,
Marcia

By Hol on Sunday, August 3, 2003 - 12:29 am:

Marcia- Thank you so much, dear friend, for your kind words. My deepest condolences to you, also. I hope that you were able to have some peace on July 31st. The anniversary dates are always so hard. Your dear little Tanner, and Brett watch over you. They have an advantage over us, in that they can see and hear us, but most of the time, we can't see and hear them. (There are those wonderful moments of grace, when we catch a glimpse of them out of the corner of our eye).I also would love to chat with your friend. What a horrible thing. Do you like to read? I just read "The Lovely Bones". Awesome book! Also, did you see "The Sixth Sense"?. I believe that's probably pretty acurate.
I would also love to chat with you about your fostering and adoptive experiences.
So glad we have met. May God hold you in His hand.
Hol

By Semperspencer on Sunday, August 3, 2003 - 02:20 pm:

I have not lost a child, and I have no idea how it must feel. But for whatever its worth, I'd like to say you two and all parents who have lost children will be in my thoughts today.

By Kernkate on Monday, January 12, 2004 - 09:02 pm:

Holly I was just checking out different boards. I am so sorry about your son. As you probably know or maybe not, DH just lost his son on Dec. 13, Josh was 18. I was with him for 14 years and I felt like he was my own. Does the pain ever end?? DH is really having a rough time.
Thanks for any answers.
Kathy